Brandon and I had a stressful couple of weeks and we haven’t seen each other much this week (and by that I mean not at all) and I just kinda lost it last night.

We had just finished the Office baby episode (we loved it, by the way) and I began cleaning up the kitchen. Brandon and started sparring about something stupid, I don’t even remember, and before I knew it, I was sobbing with my head in my hands, chest heaving, crying out, “I just don’t have the energy for this!” And then I collapsed on the couch.

All of the stress, all of the exhaustion just boiled over. I am not an emotional person by nature, but it finally caught up with me. Brandon kindly assisted me upstairs, helped me change into my PJ’s, tucked me in and got me a Tylenol PM. And I finally fell asleep.

I guess everyone has their breaking point. And although I can put mine off and off and off, eventually something snaps.

I feel a little better today and I’m excited to see Brandon tonight and spend time with my sister and her boyfriend, but what I really need is sleep. And lots of it.

We’re also discussing the feasibility of going on vacation in April—something that’s been overdue for some time. I think we’ll get away for a couple days for our anniversary, but we’ve just run out of time this month to plan anything more.

Real life—it’s about hard work, breakdowns, tears, discussions and solving problems. Where vacations are something you are lucky to have time for and where you get back exactly what you put into things. When you check your iPhone every 30 minutes to make sure you haven’t missed an important email from work. When you get home, have only just enough time to eat and fall into bed before starting everything over the next morning. It sucks and sometimes it gets to me…like last night.

It’s not all about clothes and pretty shoes on this blog. Sometimes it’s about the fact that I’m a real person in a real relationship with a real job—just like you. I don’t have a perfect life, I don’t have a perfect anything. Me and my husband, we are living and learning and loving and keeping our heads above water and we are doing it all by ourselves with only each other to lean on when the times get hard and the nights get longer.

But, this morning I have a coffee on my desk, contentment in my heart and a hope that next week—things will be better.

xoxo,

Jackie